Saturday, December 25, 2010


no matter what , they just never stop supporting me ..
no matter what , deep inside i know they love me ..
they are my own little familia
              they are my world
             they are my heart
             they are my soul                                       

much respect for him , he's the guy that protect the rest of us and make sure that we are fine

love , love , love for her .. her patient impress me , her love to us is endless ..

siblings ! crazy siblings .. i'm so closed to erra and yes we shared a lots of thingss , she can be a jerk sometimes to me but she is my favorite one , always do sista ! and for sure hafiz , we can get along sometimes but sometimes he just annoyed me around ( =.='')

last but not least , he is the oldest and he is always ''the garang" one but i know , deep inside he just cared for us , his siblings .. CHEERS BRO ! ^^.


i just dunno what to do
refreshing the memories that i had before
i feel terrible bcoz i know it wont remain the same
gosh =/

Thursday, December 23, 2010

days that brings joy

4 & 5 Dec 2010 - LRT Pasar Seni - KUL Sign Festival 


11 Dec 2010 - Bukit Jalil - Jom Heboh

19 DEC 2010 - Auditorium Taman Budaya - Show For Exploitasi Seni Tari

ps : x de banyak gambar myra coz I AM THE CAMERAMAN .. =.='' 

Thursday, December 16, 2010


i thought everything going to be different
but i was wrong
and yes
i repeat the same mistakes
i have promised myself for not to fall in love again

but when i looked at him
for some reason
i have forgotten
all the pain
all the reasons that made myself promised for not falling in love

yes , he different for the first time
and i started to count on him
and for sudden
everything changes
his attitude changed

i'm hurt
i realised that he just turn out to be the same
the same person that hurts me and take me a month to recover

as i tried to recover
at that moment i realised
my sense has gone
i can't feel no more
it's empty
it's just empty
i'm speechless

Sunday, November 28, 2010


when you love someone
you will smile when you see he/she is happy
although you are not apart of his/her happiness

when you love someone
you will walk away when you were asked to do so
although you are dying to stay

when you love someone
you will care for him/her
although you know that he/she never care for you

when you love someone
you will feel the same pain he/she feels
although you have doubt they will feel the same way to you

when you love someone
you heart will beats like crazy if he/she text you
although you know it means nothing

when you love someone
you can't find any reason to hate him/her
although he/she has hurt you a lot

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

stop stop stop

after all this time
i keep fighting and fighting
what i got is
the pain deep inside me
the pain that killing me badly

until i decided to stop
and after that
i feel great

i guess sometime
we just need to let it go
let karma handle it

it just feel better
when i stopped it right there
stopped to looked at your wall
stopped to looked at your tweets
stopped to care about what are you doing

I find myself better without doing all of these stuff
yeah , i'm learning
from the past to make me better in the future
will stop mentioning u now

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

not perfect

setelah apa yang berlaku
kini aku sedar
bertapa aku leka dengan mainan dunia
banyak bende yang telah berlaku kat aku
aku tak sedar semua itu ujian dari Allah
aku terus leka

hinggalah mama aku sendiri sedarkan aku
"ingat tuhan kak ngah"

ketika itu , baru aku sedar
aku dah lama leka

sesungguhnya Tuhan itu Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang
walaupun aku dah lama terlupaNya
namun Dia masih mendengar rintihan aku
Dia masih mahu memberikan ketenangan yang sekian lama aku cari

Alhamdulliah dengan izinNya
hati aku ini kembali tenang
hidup aku kembali normal

He shows me the truth
He shows me what's best for me


Sunday, October 31, 2010

Thursday, October 28, 2010


hear and understand this song

not giving up

i've not updating blog for ages!
for sure there's a lot things has happened
no need to mention it here
i almost lost my faith
i cried a lot
i fall apart for a moment

but god loves me ♥

when i'm down
when i'm hurt
when there is the world against me
there's always people that trust me
support me all the way
i grow stronger now
i can see what's best for me now

Mama & Abah
They know what's best
They make me feel better

Fifie Safinah
From the beggining , she's never stop supporting me . Advice me on what's best . Thanx dear !

She's the one that company me last friday . We supposed to tell the truth about that devil to mr but we didn't get a chance to do so . We walked in the rain together , such a sweet memory =)

my bestie , from the first she told me
"trust no one but urself"

Mr Joe Nerd
he never knows the story but he always do have faith in me
he's full of joke and never stop make me smile , all the time

Iskandar Halim
the brother , that always there for me

they can choose to leave me
they can choose to not believe in me
they can just walk away
but they never did

Thursday, September 9, 2010


i hate this feeling
i miss u badly
what should i do?

i'm lost
this feeling , urm
could u plz go away
it's hurt me so much
i'm not strong
it is not easy to just forget about u

i kept on smiling at u
but trust me
u really have no idea what i feel

i hope someday i will
i will overcome this feelings toward u
right now
i just keep convince myself
everything happened for a reason
have to keep my faith in Allah

i miss u
and i miss u a lot
♥ ♥ ♥ 
19 JUNE 2010

Monday, September 6, 2010

dream dream dream

i dream about something that make me scared
i fall in love with him
and he also fall in love with me
we like each other
until one day he proposed me to marry him
i agreed
one day he said wanna do the medical check up
becoz he's seems sick lately
i said okie
then once he back from hospital
he said wanna marry me next week
i wonder why
he never tell me the reason
then we got marry
he seems tired but tried to hide it
that night
he hugs me and said
i wish i can hug u and never let go
i look at him and smile
he said
i'm sorry if i'm not perfect for u
i'm sorry if i have hurt u before
i'm sorry if i'm not always there for u
i'm sorry for everything
"it's okie", i said
if i'm not here anymore plz take care of urself
i looked at him
he smile
then someone come and knock the door
i walked to the door and opened it
it was his bestie
where's him?
"in the room" i said
then he shows the text msg
aku mntax maaf kalo aku ade slap dan slah ngan ko selame ny
ko knal aku dah lame
aku dah anggap ko mcam adik beradik aku sendiri
ko banyak sabar ngan perangai aku
terima kasih sangat-sangat atas segala-galanya
kalo aku dah tak ade kat dunia ni
ko jaga lar mira baek-baek
bahagiakan dia
jangan pernah tinggalkan dia
aku tak mampu nak jaga dia selepas ni
aku kena pergi dulu
masa aku dah sampai
maafkan aku
i cried and run into the room
i tried to wake him up
then i realised
he has gone
i cried and cried until i awake from that dream
ya Allah , harap2 mimpi itu x menjadi kenyataan
i'm so scared

Sunday, September 5, 2010

what a day ,,

tired today
i got to find baju raya for the rest of the familia
at first , qayyum promise me to company me
but last minute he cancel it , need to be somewhere else
surprisingly i'm not mad at him
i guess i'm too tired to do so
or maybe i don't know how to get mad anymore
maybe it is the best to understand him
i guess so
continue with my story for today
as i get there i contact my bestie saff
promise to meet me at times square but sudden he's at sungai wang
as i get there , we hang around mcd sungai wang while doing muke bodo
ala , bukan makan pown >> saff said
meet is and eydan aka abg boojae and their kawan perempuan =.=''
feel kinda shy , i just silent all the way
then for sudden that girl ajak balik
and i'm like what ??
i come here nak shopping lar , x beli ape2 barang pown lagi dah ajak balik
with muke malas nak balik i said
kowang balik lar , i nak g shopping all by myself at times square
the guys did care about it and the girls seems didn't wanna know at all
whatever , i am independent 
can go shopping all by myself
after they got back with monorail , i just walked around
did buy some baju raya for the familia but it didn't complete yet
will continue my shopping raya for familia on monday as i wanna overnite at bb that night
or maybe i just buy some at south city plaza
however can't wait on monday bcoz wanna berbuka puasa at kl sentral ! yay !!
after penat , i go to bb
i think wanna berbuka puasa there but that place was crowded
i walked back to times square and seems like oldtown pown dah penuh
nak berbuka kat mane ni , perut dah berdangdut
then i just walked to 7e , buy 2 kotak milo and take a monorail back to kl sentral
too tired until tertido in ktm , hehe >> nasib baik x terlepas
sampai hostel terus singgah kedai makan and makan ! :D
that's all
totally tiring day , 
and i wonder , bile mase plak c mafia tu nampak aku ??
aku pown x perasan dia
he can tell the whole outfit that i'm wearing
impossible to say that he's lying

Saturday, September 4, 2010

my heart my soul

look outside the window and say
what did u see ??
look on the street and say
what did u see ??

the day passes without me even realized it
kinda buz with my kolej life i think
when i look outside the window , on the street
i started to think about myself
what i've done for all this years
just being me i guess
lot of things has happened
as the feeling that i hate doesn't go away
i am so lost when that feeling do come
i helpless
may god give me strength to overcome u
and maybe one day i will become stronger
have a faith in Allah
He knows the best

Monday, August 16, 2010

my mama

this morning , i woke up and the first thing that i saw is my mama ,, i smile to her ,, she seems busy doing the housework ,, before i go back to my hostel , she asked me ,, nk bwak bekal x?? nnti bley mkan sahur ,, and i said yes .. she dropped me at bus station ,, after bersalaman with her and my father , i get on the bus ,, weaving my hand to her ,, she smiled ,, when i get back to hostel and unpack my things , i found the bekal that she gave to me ,, so sudden i miss her ,, i ate that nasi and lauk ikan msak merah that she gave me with the feeling of me missing her ,, in front of mr lappy ,i ate while listening to felix af4 - anak song ,, i almost cry , thanx a lot mama , i miss u ,, :(
i love u mama ,, sure i do

Saturday, August 14, 2010

memories >> need to let it go

19 JUNE 2010

i didn't see it's coming
he made me fall in love without me even realized it
it's fun
it's hard to forget
but i realized that i just need to let him go
for our goodness
trust me , it's hurt so much
but i must do it
i wiped my tears every time i miss you
i hate it when you seem so happy with other
but then i realized

you will know that you ♥ someone when you want him to be happy.. even if that means you're not a part of their happiness.
trust me
it's hard
but now i've learned
learned to let you go
learned to move on
you are not mine
i got it now
do whatever you like that make you happy
be with however you want
gonna remember you for the rest of my life
gonna miss you

m.u e

love of the broken heart
amira shazwan

what can i say ??

what can i say , i'm kinda miss him and surprisingly i miss him a lot ,
he know it and i just can't denied it
my heart said just let he know about it but how come ,,
what will he say ,
i wish it is easy but it is not ,,

i am mad at my little sister but she said something that make me think

sampai biler u wanna to keep it as a secret
what should i do then??
i'm speechless when he talk about it yesterday 
feel's like wanna run and hide

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

what happened ??

i can't stop thinking about you
i can't stop looking at your picture
it's like i'm addicted to you

what should i do ?? tell me ,,

i'm speechless , breathless
can i scream i love you  ??
can i tell you i love you ??
can i ??

what will you said if i do ??


Monday, August 9, 2010

the best moments >> miss it a lot ,,

♥♥♥     7 AUGUST 2010     ♥♥♥
how i meet amazing people  >> jan , farah adlin , faizul , salleh , iz , ayie/mafia , nurul 
u guys rawk , miss this moment a lot , ( i mean it :)
it started with the serabut situation at ktm serdang with a lot and lot and lot of ppl there
me searching gift for my father's birthday
meet jan and the rest go mkan2 with them
my bag paper that contain gift for my father tetibe bocor , with help from the insane faizul  
>> fixing the bag paper ( thanx lar giler :) 
accompany farah adlin searching a calculator at pavi
had fun in the book store with the rest
lpak a while at bb then farah adlin is going back with hafiz , after wakaka finish their performance , jan also going back with harry , faizul and the rest
i meet mafia yg mmg nyakitkan ati 2 , iz come and said that she got no transport nak blik
company her until night with ayie and nurul
kene bahan habis-habisan dgn mr mafia but i had fun ♥ ,, :)
best moment and i'm kinda miss it ,, :)
would love to have it again :)

Thursday, August 5, 2010

me missing final SHOWDOWN 2010 :(

just now , i've watched again the 8tv catch up for final sd , n i'm kinda sad when the first video come out , the song is like very mendayu-dayu and make me more missing showdown , and i almost crying when i watch alam bgi speech after wakaka won sd , he seems almost cry and i'm totally feel like crying too , but i'm kinda addicted to that video , watch it over and over again, every time i watched it , i still can feel the same feelings >> crying , hahaha , however i miss the most moment when we all wait for wakaka to kuar from that kl live , until 1 am we waited for them , mcam x nak kuar lar plak kan dyowg 2 ,, got time to spend with jan and the rest , antara best moment that i have ,,

DATE : 14 JULY 2010