E.M.P.T.Y

i thought everything going to be different

but i was wrong

and yes

i repeat the same mistakes

i have promised myself for not to fall in love again

but when i looked at him

for some reason

i have forgotten

all the pain

all the reasons that made myself promised for not falling in love

yes , he different for the first time

and i started to count on him

and for sudden

everything changes

his attitude changed

i'm hurt

i realised that he just turn out to be the same

the same person that hurts me and take me a month to recover

as i tried to recover

at that moment i realised

my sense has gone

i can't feel no more

it's empty

it's just empty

i'm speechless

LOVE

when you love someone

you will smile when you see he/she is happy

although you are not apart of his/her happiness

when you love someone

you will walk away when you were asked to do so

although you are dying to stay

when you love someone

you will care for him/her

although you know that he/she never care for you

when you love someone

you will feel the same pain he/she feels

although you have doubt they will feel the same way to you

when you love someone

you heart will beats like crazy if he/she text you

although you know it means nothing

when you love someone

you can't find any reason to hate him/her

although he/she has hurt you a lot

stop stop stop

after all this time

i keep fighting and fighting

what i got is

the pain deep inside me

the pain that killing me badly

until i decided to stop

and after that

i feel great

i guess sometime

we just need to let it go

let karma handle it

it just feel better

when i stopped it right there

stopped to looked at your wall

stopped to looked at your tweets

stopped to care about what are you doing

I find myself better without doing all of these stuff

yeah , i'm learning

from the past to make me better in the future

will stop mentioning u now

FULLSTOP

not perfect

setelah apa yang berlaku

kini aku sedar

bertapa aku leka dengan mainan dunia

banyak bende yang telah berlaku kat aku

aku tak sedar semua itu ujian dari Allah

aku terus leka

hinggalah mama aku sendiri sedarkan aku

"ingat tuhan kak ngah"

ketika itu , baru aku sedar

aku dah lama leka

sesungguhnya Tuhan itu Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang

walaupun aku dah lama terlupaNya

namun Dia masih mendengar rintihan aku

Dia masih mahu memberikan ketenangan yang sekian lama aku cari

Alhamdulliah dengan izinNya

hati aku ini kembali tenang

hidup aku kembali normal

Alhamdulliah

He shows me the truth

He shows me what's best for me

THANK YOU ALLAH!

31 October 2010

the day that shall be remember

i had fun today

yeah i do

 =)

='(

hear and understand this song

not giving up

i've not updating blog for ages!

for sure there's a lot things has happened

no need to mention it here

i almost lost my faith

i cried a lot

i fall apart for a moment

but god loves me ♥

when i'm down

when i'm hurt

when there is the world against me

there's always people that trust me

support me all the way

i grow stronger now

i can see what's best for me now

Mama & Abah

They know what's best
They make me feel better

Fifie Safinah

From the beggining , she's never stop supporting me . Advice me on what's best . Thanx dear !

 

Fara

She's the one that company me last friday . We supposed to tell the truth about that devil to mr but we didn't get a chance to do so . We walked in the rain together , such a sweet memory =)

Ina

my bestie , from the first she told me

"trust no one but urself"

Mr Joe Nerd

he never knows the story but he always do have faith in me

he's full of joke and never stop make me smile , all the time

Iskandar Halim

the brother , that always there for me

♥♥♥♥♥

they can choose to leave me

they can choose to not believe in me

they can just walk away

but they never did